I would like to change my behavior in many ways but mainly I would like to control the feeling which make people fail. Its the feeling which drives after success, its the feeling which comes after appreciation from people around us, the great EGO.
This feeling is natural which is especially to fail us, mostly people say it is worse. Even I have faced Ego when I was in 6th grade. It was my final exam which was very severe and I scored 92.46% which led me to be second in my class. I felicitated 2 times in front of whole school, many times in front of my and my parent' s friend circle. My confidence turned into over confidence. It was on its highest peak of Mauna Kea(The highest mountain in the world). I was aware that ego will control me that's why I started to act simple like nothing has happened but EGO is a DRUG YOU UNINTENTIONALLY CONSUME it.
Next year in7th grade in first cycle test I got 74%. My EGO was still not hurt! At that time I was like "Ya! Ya! I got less marks so what". It was nothing to me because every student in my class got less marks and even marks is not important to me, what's important is dream, skill, intelligence, science, and humanity. The only change I had was that my ego was on its highest peak of Mt. Everest. But I finally crashed when i got to know about kids like Tanmay Bhat, Naina Jaiswal, William Maillis, etc. who have done their graduation and post graduation in age of 11-12. I was totally broken because they completed their studies and now completing their dreams but I was still studying in 7th grade. This realisation totally changed me. From that day I started to think in a different way. I started to gain Knowledge of science, spirituality, and life to crack the puzzle what is known as life. After I gained the Knowledge my first words were "Thank You Universe to make the great feeling which is made to rise us up, EGO".
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